it is my fault, isn't it?

ive already said im gonna be standing still not so sure anymore cause i stand and stand and i just can't hold it anymore

this feeling in my chest if it is really a feeling cause i feel nothing nothing at all

it is all in my head, they say the pills that i swallow only make it worse but with this antithese of feeling everything and feeling nothing i swear its going to kill me

i do not meant it literally im gonna still be breathing but maybe i will let go of all the good things maybe all of the things because i don't know anymore if there is a good thing

i just feel so tired and i just wanna be alone really alone that way i won't feel the need to cry there will be no things to cry about

i really tought i could make it this time but i guess i was wrong, as usual some things shouldn't feel like obligation and i shouldn't feel mad and hate all the time

with this all said my soul is gonna be erased and im just gonna be a black hole to dangerous to see, to dangerous to touch and im gonna end alone (and it will be my fault)